Am I a blogger? No, not really. Writting isn’t my first love being dyslexic writting really is a nightmare. But I have so much I want to say and if you can look pass the imperfection of my writing and understand what’s in my heart there are things I would like to say then that is what matters to help people out there and to let people know your not alone.
It’s my body so why do I feel like I am not worth it with my lose skin, varicose veins, stretch marks and cellulite body. Why does my life have to be about comparing myself to other woman and why does it have to matter? The man I am with loves me so why is it so important for acceptance.
For me it’s because I’ve been hurt, I was told I was not worth looking at and I was fat and that I was gross. So I had a self image problem but I had to realize the past is the past and it’s not true…..never let anyone take your happiness away.
It comes down to self-worth, self-love and having self-esteem. But it’s working on yourself everyday. It’s a work in progress.
I wake up everyday feeling great it’s when I open up socail media and I start comparing myself to others? So, I decided I just can’t open up socail media right way until I work on myself and of course have my coffee meditate and workout. I can not care about what others think and realize I am beautiful and if I am working on myself everyday that’s all that really matters.
I hate being compared, I hate it with a passion!! I feel when your with someone who you love and honor then your with that person…..life is about being happy so be with someone who makes you happy and can hold your hand and listen to your heart and like wise.
My heart was broken and healing it well it’s been a ride most people don’t know about. When self-love sinks into your heart and you don’t care anymore what others think and the Journey has just begun on a new life.
These pictures that are at the bottom are in different lighting. I have varicose veins that look like cellulite and at times I just want to cry….they hurt and are painful but I never slow down because I have a crew that keeps me busy like everyone else who’s a mum, wife and has to work. So, to take control of my life I truly have to have my morning time….working out is so important and keeping my health up. It’s so important varicose veins are no joke and I have to keep an eye on them. Getting them fix in the future but that’s something that I will need to do and can’t wait.
I got varicose veins during my fourth pregnancy and only got worse when I got pregnant with my fifth since I was carrying twins and never knew until I lost one of the twins in my fifth month my body was going through so much at that time. I truly look at all six children and I would do it all over again because they are worth it, knowing that my body was like “what the hell”! But when a mother sees her baby at least for me I would go through anything for them.
When I workout, I workout on things to help me improve my target places that bug me. I use kettlebells they are my favorite! I pull my tire and I use bands for my legs. When our gym is done we will have it all, the bar, squat rack and much more….but what I have now is great. You do what works for you.
I am no fitness model or expert, a mum who knows that if you want something so bad you need to fight it. Surrounding yourself with people who better you and no negative talk will help alot. It’s all in the mind focus on positive and soon you will not only see a difference but you will love yourself more!
To all mums out there and dad’s too, looking good is not wrong remember because your a mum or dad doesn’t mean you can’t look great and feel great! Teach your children about health and self-esteem, self-love and self-worth. I am no 20 year old those days are gone…and being 41 I have the right to look great because it’s what I want.
And remember when you feel great about yourself your relationships are better! So is sex, now most people now are going to think wow, why did she say that….it’s true! Loving yourself all around helps you closer to your partner. When there is negative on a person and they don’t value themselves then how is being with the one you love going to help its not. That’s why it’s so important to know where your heart is. You’re not the only one out there with these feelings.
Please remember when working out study or ask for help. Working with weights are the best but you need to know what your doing. Start light and work up…..working with weighs has giving me the confidence I need to feel great in my own skin!